thought I would move over to tumblr because it seems cooler somehow but got lost in choosing a theme, then i lost my reason to move the blog over. the point is to write, so I'll write here. here is fine.

sitting with a guitar on my lap makes me feel better. I'm not very good, I need so much more practice. still it keeps my hands sort of busy in a way that I like.

it was a perfect grey day and it feels absolutely delicious. every bit of this weather is something to eat up, red and green of traffic lights are marvelous. lots of good color contrasts going on. its muted and vibrant at the same time. one of those days where I want the perfect moments to become a part of me, I want to love everything so much.

the house is empty and it feels fantastic to fill out the space. I missed an appointment today, i forgot to ask a question, i wouldnt be rushed. even the doubt that crept in today, I can hold that too. I told B about the dream of the lion, and she said the lion is always the self. i dreamed that a lion came to me and rested it head on my neck and I was terrified.